I can’t think of any reason of why we’re dating right now. It’s probably because we have just fraught over the phone and we were having a bad afternoon. My eyes are swollen from crying, my legs are shivering from the walk home, my heart feels like its been teared up in pieces, and my head feels like its been hit like roadkill.
I never want to be a nuisance ever. In my workplace, at home, in my relationships. Never.. but it’s literally impossible.
But the deep thoughts that I’ve kept in my head; I thought was a safe place before it started hurting internally. Sharing my deep thoughts I thought, would open a gateway that you wanted to enter, you wanted to see, you wanted to understand.
I was wrong.
I can never explain the pain that I feel. Why? How can someone explain how pain feels? Pain is feeling caused by a numerous factors. My pain though.. I never want anyone else to feel.
TBC
